Leaving your child at university is a hard enough adjustment to make on top of this stressed relationship. I feel as if I have failed at times and then I receive encouragement from others around me who know the details. I am thankful for these precious ones the Lord has sent as a healing balm to me.
So far my son is making good on his promise not to talk to me. Thankfully he will talk to his father and grandparents. I am alone in my exile! (No, not alone.) I would so love to hear how things are going and how he is adjusting to having a roommate. I have sent him a care package filled with things he likes hoping he will be comforted far from his family who loves him. (Isn't Pinterest just filled with fun ideas for care packages?)
This season of a mother's heart is a complex time for me. Yet I know that I am going to be OK. I am reminded that I am blessed to have two Christ loving children at home. I am grieving the loss of my firstborn, but I am not without hope as long as there is today, there is hope for his salvation.